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When I played WoW I would get extremely agitated at anything that interrupted me, even yelling at my girlfriend to "get the ♥♥♥♥ away from me, I'm trying to concentrate and your ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ up my timing.. I DON'T WANT TO RUN TO MY BODY AGAIN!". I played wow instead of doing anything else at that time. When I didn't play WoW, I daydreamed about playing WoW during the the days, thinking of weapon combos, or armor I wanted, and dreamed about WoW when I slept. That ♥♥♥♥ was ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ridiculous and insane. I have spent over 24hours playing a session of WoW only running to the kitchen to eat during flights or random time sinks in the game. I finally saw it was a waste of life and quit cold turkey but I still got major urges to play again afterwards. I'd get on sit in the city for an hour thinking, "What the ♥♥♥♥ did I do this for? I hate this ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ game!" Over time those urges faded but every now and then I still want to go back to that willfully ignorant happiness.

As far as food, I will gorge on food uncontrollably at times until I hurt. Food is so ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ good to me that my mentality is "the faster I eat, the more food tastiness per second I can experience" when I get like that. The only saving grace is when I see I've gained a couple of pounds I go on the reversal and start a strict diet to get back to normal for a couple of weeks.

And cool-aid. I drink a gallon of that every one to two days. This is the habit I can't break. I'll probably end up with diabetes over it but ♥♥♥♥, I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ love cool-aid. Addiction is real in those instances so I don't see how weed can be any more detrimental. The only thing that keeps me from dying a fat disgusting death is high metabolism and the will to not be fat.